The new normal...

Hello world...

I should warn you now, I am not a writer nor do I want to be (so sorry in advance for grammar errors and typos). I am just a girl looking to help others going through the same situation, as well as find those people like me. My mom passed away a little over a month ago, on May 14th, 2011 to be exact. I was 24, my sister was 19 and she was 53. My sister and I have an estranged relationship with my dad, so losing my mom was losing the world. Over the past month I have been challenged to move along in my "new normal" and have not had much success. I am a person that relies on facts and proof and no matter how hard I search there is no fact or proof that will show me my mom is still with me or that she is watching over me. All I have is my faith and too be honest that hasn't been enough. So that has lead me here...

The name of this blog "Over the Rainbow" is named for my mom. She loved rainbows and I feel it represents where I am right now. Rainbows cannot be touched only viewed from a far, just like my mom now. Like a rainbow, I do not know where she is or when she will appear (if ever) I just have to work through the storm hoping to find a glimmer of hope on the other side. Each day is a challenge, but like my mom, I am not afraid of that.

I have spent this past month reading books, going through therapy, talking to friends and calling every medium/psychic in the phone book looking for a quick fix and a way out of the emptiness that I feel. Every road has lead me to this point. I will use this blog to document not only the struggles but also the reasons to keep moving on in hopes I find that rainbow. It will also be a place to share who my mom was and how she lived her life. I know everyone is unique, but my mom's story has to be told and through finding my own peace I will tell hers. My hope is that others can find comfort in knowing they are not alone on this journey. I hope others reach out and find me in their quest of understanding in this madness. As cheesy as it sounds, together we will make it through the storm and land over the rainbow into our new normal.